I don't belong here

A bright blinding light hits your eyes, and whoosh you find yourself in an alien
place. You know if you relax down for just a few seconds, you will find out the
answer to the questions in the mind. But alas! the mind, the mind which has seen
those endless bollywood movie; how can it possibly miss such a chance to ask
the ultimate question:

" Main kaun hoon?"
" Main kahan hoon?"
( All those who aren't familiar with these Godly questions of bollywood movies
here is the interpretation - Who am I? Where am I?)

This is just another race, no let me try a better word - species, of people. They are constantly doing this thing which blows out your senses. The eyes are totally engraved into these thick bundles of sheets made out of the wooden pulp. All these sheets have something tiny scribbled on them. There are some fancy structures made out of lines.

The voices all sound familiar but the things they are talking are again some alien language. The only explanation possible is that they are talking about those scribbled things in those thick bundle of sheets.


So what is someone like me doing in this world of alien thoughts,activities and
talks.[** Creep by Radiohead ~ I dont belong here~]

Probably it is the cosmic conspiracy. I am sure someone is doing this experiment and is very keen on seeing the observations and the results.

One guy would come and start speaking in that unknown language. All others would nod their heads. This must be to tell the speaker to go on. And so would he. The times creeps....creeps.....I think the poor snail would travel few miles in this time. Surprisingly, someone from the listeners would suddenly speak something and the speaker would stop. And once again he would speak...

The time comes and the speaker is finally tired of speaking. No! I think the program completes itself and it has timed out. The group of listener starts moving towards the bunkers. Once again I can see those bundle of sheets lying everywhere.

My head hurts. The nerves scream out loud. It seems it would explode. And my brain would be nothing but a chunk of innumerable small pieces.

I wake up again. Blurry vision...One of the listener is again looking into that thick bundle. I move around the other bunkers. Some more of those listeners are here. All into bundles....bundles ...sheeets....sheets!

"...But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here.........."

29 comments:

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Anonymous said...

A wonderful read it was.

phoenix said...

jsut popped in to say hi

wanted to comment on the post...but didnt know what.. :P

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swatimala said...

somehow, this post reminded me of myself during the lectures

tHe_NeW_cYnIc said...

sigh...these confused times calls for a cold splash of water on the face! hehehe...

how have you been?

Sujoy Bhattacharjee said...

Was that about delivering a lecture on your term paper or about the finance minister and his annual budget.
just joking.
nice piece.... the claustraphobia that we often feel at times. the desire to just escape.
BTW Creep is one of my fav songs.

kaylee said...

YOu ok??????????

Beauty and the BEast said...

yeah DJ..

Its something like what I feel when I let trance music wash over me and surrender to it...

In an alien world..


Nice write up!

AshenGlow said...

Oh exactly how i feel during presentations at my oh-so-interesting workplace... there's a span of some precious minutes after which the mind goes into a .. heh.. stand by mode... with a zillion thoughlings zzzting inside the mind...
Well written... Very. :)

AshenGlow said...

And yeah.. i reeaally love the way your blog looks..

Anonymous said...

Good write up!
And I really love the song.

Mona said...

While reading ur post, I start thinking of my guest lectures when some people came and speak anything and we understand nothing.

Anyways, good writing..
Mona

Indrajit said...

Me too feels many times "I don't belong here."

Good write. Tc.

Hoobastank said...

Hey man

How are you doing?
Long time .....!

Nice post was ever!

Rashmi Krishna said...

OMG!!!! This is wot a BLOG is supposed to be. Dude, u ROCK..BIG TIME!!!

Kudos....

vitruvian said...

hie..
how've u been dude!

cool post...reminded me of lecture days in engineering man!!
just 33 months out of college and i already mis it! "sigh"

neway..
cheers!

Kim said...

Hi

How are you doing man?

Great post here!

flyingstars said...

lovely reading this thoughtful post...you have captured the modern day life beautifully through words...excellent!

Lucid Darkness said...

Hah. People. The less said about them the better. They seem to speak more than they need to anyway. Bleh.

R3d3MpTioN said...

blink ... blink .. pinch .. yes definitely here .. I think it was brilliantly written .. and almost everyone will somehow find an association with the situation .. thats wat makes it a work of art..!! nicely done man ..

Nabila Zehra Zaidi said...

And then a blurring vision and uory....zzzzzz.....

>>suddenly wakes up, as if felt tremors of an earthquake<< BTW, I LOVE the song! >>head back into position<< ....zzzzzzzzz.....

dharmabum said...

i don't belong here, but i AM here anyways, so whats next, i ask? and the mind, as always, turns a blank.

*blink*

unpretentious said...

alien land alien language:)i can totally empathise:)i went through this all through my school life.

sharyu said...

i am taking three advanced level courses thsi yar adv. cell biology, adv. neurobiology and adv. molecular biology and biochemistry. i think i am learning the same info. in all three classes in three completely different ways. i have to check the syllabus and my textbooks every couple of hours every day to remind myself where i am and what class it is. this post really sums up what i feel like by 9:45 pm in the day when the last of my classes for the day is over and i know that there are two more days int eh week to survive.

Aditi said...

It seem to be a hollywood cosmic movie......

How ru?

phoenix said...

i have changed my url to

http://waves-of-light.blogspot.com/

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daman kohli said...

came to ur blog after a long time ... sorry that i missed ur stuff... i can somehow connect with ur ordeal ...these lectures and presentations ...need i explain further??