The Real Decision!

There are so many times in our lives that we have to make decisions.
They range from some big ones regarding your life to small everyday
decisions.Most of these decisions we make are based on a lot of

They may be dependent on the situation you are facing - A circumstantial decision that is.
Then come the ones you make under influences of friends and family. Its a
result of their suggestions,feed backs and advices,and hence your
decision is taken.
There is one which is taken because it looks like the best one, best according to the society,more of a 'Right thing to do'!
And then comes the the real decision - Your own decision!
This is a decision which comes right from the heart. A call of the mind, may
be an intuition. Something you know is right and will get you or
make you the real you,you want
to be!

Frankly speaking,we all feel uncomfortable accepting this kind of
classification of decisions. We
always tend to tell ourselves that it was our own real decision. And we
all are very well know they all aren't.

The last kind of the decisions are the most difficult to make. There are so
many problems and obstacles you can foresee if you ever take it. It may
be the social acceptability,Peer pressure, fear of failure and even
fear of the hard work!

But you see,one day you will ultimately
have to make that one real decision
. We keep on making the
'fake' decisions and in that way keep coming to end point where once
again we need to make that our own decision. We ignore it, We just keep

This is the phase which I am passing through presently.
I want to make that real decision now.....and live my live with utmost
It feels so good when you take those decisions,how
silly and troublesome they may seem before. But the result is always
that satisfaction , that feeling of completeness. Its not that ,it will bring you instant success or anything like that always.

But that feeling, I tell you is worth it!

So have felt that feeling lately?
Have you made a Real, your Own decision ?

Its not just Cricket!

As I see India's pathetic and shameful performance in this world cup ( Sorry You Hard core fanatics Bermuda didn't beat Bangladesh) , it rings a familiar bell in my mind.

It was back in my 11th class,when I was taking coaching for my entrance exams( please this is a serious post,I would refrain myself from sarcasm),and once our physics teacher said this to whole class ,"You see, this is not just a problem of you not studying and performing well,It is much more deep rooted than that. As I see your faces, I see no one of wants to really study hard and prove something. You all come from good families,you get all the facilities one child can get. And this is the problem. It has spoiled your attitude towards life. You have got every
possible thing in you life,you parents had made sure that you get what you want.And Hence,you have this " No worries,Chalta hain" attitude in you. Beacause you feel safe, you feel nothing can go real bad! You know dep inside that soon you will be forgiven, you parents love you so much. They will do something for you again. Chalta hain yaar! Tension nahi!"

These words did make a real hard impact on me ,and they seem relevant to almost everywhere. Look around us ,We indians do have this "chalta hain" attitude engraved in us. Not all,pardon me but yes majority of us.

And this reflects clearly from our Cricket team. They all have made nice money. They know it is not that big deal. It will soon go away. A couple of good personal performances and they will be heroes again!

You see its not just cricket. Students,Politicians, professors,Policy Makers,Men ,Women ,Children....... its everywhere!

"Kya yaar,fir kya hua...Chalta hain! "

I guess it has become a reality..Isnt it?

Its All Same Again!

This new realization has just hit me. When these kind of things hit you, you just can't help wondering that there
were there all the time, but how in the hell you didn't see it earlier.
Now that I have realized this realization I feel very well, its kind of
unexplainable feeling actually.

Its that you find yourself at a
crux in life where you had been before. Same point ,Same feeling its
just that the time and the scenario has changed itself . 4 years of your
life have passed and you are at the same point once again. Once again
the Life has put a big question mark in front of you.
You have to make
one big decision on which your entire life may depend. You feel the Deja-vu.....yes same feel,everything is same.
You thought you have changed, you have grown and you are now a much learned man.
But the truth is - you are still the same. Sometimes you push yourself to work hard, then things like Luck,fate and destiny would come in your mind. You are so very sure about yourself and your life at one point and next, you are all down and confused....
Is it what you call a Vicious Circle..?

realize that may be you do not have a clear goal, a clear vision but
still you are moving on with life. Why? Because you have no choice but
to move on....

If you want a better feeling of what I am trying to say ,just listen to this song. Its called - SHAYAD by THE CALL!

Kal ki In Bato mein Kya rakha hain
Socho to kuch bhi nahi
Sabh khalla hain
Aj bhi kuch badlaa nahii
Kal jahan tha
Wahin hun abhi

ShayAd yahiiiii...Kismat mein Likha
Manjil Nahi..Fir bhi main Chal raha.....

In sab saaawalo mein Kya rakha hain?
Kyun main Kuch sochUn Jab
Sab Fanna Hain
Aj fir usi mod pe hun Khadaaa
Kis GUnaaah ki Seh raha hun Saaajaa

ShayAd yahiiiii...Kismat mein Likha
Manjil Nahi..Fir bhi main Chal raha...

Crawling In The Dark..

I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing

Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?

So when and how will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know?
Because I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me

In front of me
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

This is one beautiful song by Hoobastank. I just listened to this song after I dont know how long. And As I started listening to it, I realized that how much I can relate to it now. It almost explains everything.....

Sometimes you don't exactly understand a song or piece of art,until you are experiencing it in our own life. And suddenly to feel as if that piece has been made for you...

Awesome...thats all I can say!


The Image DNA.....

Competition here too....!

Everyday all of us here of this word. Competition - it has started to creep in like a bug in our lives. There is competition in studies,in sports,in proffesions...its everywhere. I would see this and get sick.
Then suddenly one day I realize that I hardly have anything to do whole day,and that I was almost free all through. Thinking about my routine I said to myself that I gotta be the man who has nothing worth while to do for entire day.
And I almost believed that this would be something I won't have any competition in. I wake up late,there are no lectures to attend,My college is fucked up place and there are no hang out places in here. I sit,eat,go online or some other place and thats about it.

But alas! I was so damn wrong. I stand no where in this field either just like any. There is whole world of "free" people. They are so many levels ahead of me.

I looked at myself and said I wake up late,but look at this guy,he wont even wake up.....
I have a college to name atleast,this dude right there haven't seen any....
I go to this cafe for 2 hours...these bunch of people are here before me and leave after I do....
So many fuckin things.......

God...this world is coming to an end,There ain't a field left where you don't have to work hard and sweat it being " free" whole day.......!