I don't belong here

A bright blinding light hits your eyes, and whoosh you find yourself in an alien
place. You know if you relax down for just a few seconds, you will find out the
answer to the questions in the mind. But alas! the mind, the mind which has seen
those endless bollywood movie; how can it possibly miss such a chance to ask
the ultimate question:

" Main kaun hoon?"
" Main kahan hoon?"
( All those who aren't familiar with these Godly questions of bollywood movies
here is the interpretation - Who am I? Where am I?)

This is just another race, no let me try a better word - species, of people. They are constantly doing this thing which blows out your senses. The eyes are totally engraved into these thick bundles of sheets made out of the wooden pulp. All these sheets have something tiny scribbled on them. There are some fancy structures made out of lines.

The voices all sound familiar but the things they are talking are again some alien language. The only explanation possible is that they are talking about those scribbled things in those thick bundle of sheets.


So what is someone like me doing in this world of alien thoughts,activities and
talks.[** Creep by Radiohead ~ I dont belong here~]

Probably it is the cosmic conspiracy. I am sure someone is doing this experiment and is very keen on seeing the observations and the results.

One guy would come and start speaking in that unknown language. All others would nod their heads. This must be to tell the speaker to go on. And so would he. The times creeps....creeps.....I think the poor snail would travel few miles in this time. Surprisingly, someone from the listeners would suddenly speak something and the speaker would stop. And once again he would speak...

The time comes and the speaker is finally tired of speaking. No! I think the program completes itself and it has timed out. The group of listener starts moving towards the bunkers. Once again I can see those bundle of sheets lying everywhere.

My head hurts. The nerves scream out loud. It seems it would explode. And my brain would be nothing but a chunk of innumerable small pieces.

I wake up again. Blurry vision...One of the listener is again looking into that thick bundle. I move around the other bunkers. Some more of those listeners are here. All into bundles....bundles ...sheeets....sheets!

"...But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here.........."

The Rush!

For all his life he has driven his car on big empty lanes. He has traveled through so many roads and so many places.He has driven through forests, there have been deserts and sands, there have been fields, and there have been mountains.
He had always enjoyed driving. He had felt the hot dry air in sand on his face. And again he had the wet drops with breeze pushing him. Then there has been no wind, just the warmth of the sun like the mother's love. There has been storms with snow blowing out everything.
It has been cold. It has been warm.It has been hot!

He had stopped wherever he had wanted. To look at the mighty mountains, To stare at the endless stars in the sky , To feel the rain drenching him, To say goodbye to setting sun and welcome it rising. And sometimes just because he wanted to stop and feel everything around him.

Yes, there have been maddening towns. The traffic, the noise, but it has been for small intervals. He has passed with, and sometimes bypassed them totally. He has kept himself to wide open roads!

Then came a might day. The wide road came at a four way. Something sharp pained in his brain. Just for a fraction of a second. It was like it came and went before you can scream!
He shook his head and moved straight!
( Close you eye and imagine this. A wide road meeting at a four way. At the very moment the view goes up and up. Up to the sky, revealing what lays ahead of that wide road)

There were lanes.
There were lanes.
More lanes.
Lanes and Lanes.
So many lanes.
Infinite lanes...

Lanes meeting more lanes.
Lanes leaving other lanes.
Lanes over lanes.
Lanes below lanes.

And there was traffic. Vehicles moving everywhere. Running, rushing, speeding. No lane was without them. All had vehicles running on them.
The maddening rush!

You cant stop. You stop and you are hit from behind.
You have to move...
Move and Rush!

There is one place where you stop - The Red light. Ya everyone stops at one.
But the light timings have been so adjusted. There is not enough time to think what is happening. The moment you try to think over it.

Whoosh there is green...
Move....
Rush....


( The view keeps moving upwards. It shows the maze. You see and see. You see and it is blurred. It is blurred and it disappears!)


PS : Illustration once again by my talented friend Navi.You can visit him here.

Eruption....

For best reults - Put this song on - " Sexual Eruption" by Snoop Dogg before starting of with the reading.Get it here: DOWNLOAD

The smoke in the front of his eyes was floating in the air.

The song playing was - Sexual Eruption by snoop dogg.

He half laid on the comfortable couch of the lounge club..The walls were painted black, and the steel raillings and staircase was shining brightly.On the low table in front of him, lay his wonder puff. He put his face down and inhaled it...

.
"I'm gonna take my time, she gon get hers before II'm gonna take it slow (woah woahh),......................."

Eyes closed....It travelled from the tunnel in his nose to his head..he could feel every millimetre of its movement....till it spread to his whole head....He kept his eyes closed..and slowly opened them...

" Sexual Eruptionnnn...Sexua..."

The smoke in front of him was floating smoothly, the things moved in a motion,...slow....The dj with his headphones on movin his head slowly....,the people moving on the floor slowly.....,
Bartender threw up the vodka bottle in the air...it went up slowly...,and stopped...and it reamined there....just in the mid air.....
Hands moved, Heads moved, Smoke floated, Music played on...The Bottle stayed in the air.....!

"She might be with him but shes thinkin 'bout me me meeeeeeee............................."

He reached for his glass on the table. He moved his hand...and it moved slowly......slowly it moved ahead......Slowly.....Finally it felt the cold glass surface.....He gulped in the liquid in one go....His eyes closed....and opened again slowly....

"We don't go to the mall, we don't go out to eat eat eeeaat...."

The eyes saw a naked thigh....it moved slowly.....the black silky cloth came over it but went away slowly....Coming down they saw a shining knee....brighter than the steel in the club....The flesh would turn blue, then green and sometimes white.....The eyes moved slowly....

"All that we ever do it play in the sheets sheets sheeeeeetss............."

His head went again for the powder.....sniffed...it travelled....to the head...

"I'm gonna take it slow (woah woahh), .............."

Eyes close...

Eyes open Slowly.....

Smoke didn't float, it was still in the air....

No bodies moved, they stayed still .....

Just one body moved.....

drapped in black silk...

It moved amongst the still world...

Thighs moved....

Black...

White.....

" Sexual Eruptioooonnn..."

Black white.....

Green...

Blue...

Black white...

Green...

Blue...

"If you don't know by now, Doggy Dogg is a freak freak freeeeaak...."

It moved Slow....Slow...Slow...

"Smoke us a cigarette and go back to sleep sleep sleeeeeep...."

Slow...owww..owwwww......

Slowwwww....

Slo....

Sl....o...

S...l.....w.....w................

Stop!

All black!!

"Sexual Eruption (A sexual eruption)

Sexual Eruption (woah, an orgasm)

Sexual Eruption ............."