The Rush!

For all his life he has driven his car on big empty lanes. He has traveled through so many roads and so many places.He has driven through forests, there have been deserts and sands, there have been fields, and there have been mountains.
He had always enjoyed driving. He had felt the hot dry air in sand on his face. And again he had the wet drops with breeze pushing him. Then there has been no wind, just the warmth of the sun like the mother's love. There has been storms with snow blowing out everything.
It has been cold. It has been warm.It has been hot!

He had stopped wherever he had wanted. To look at the mighty mountains, To stare at the endless stars in the sky , To feel the rain drenching him, To say goodbye to setting sun and welcome it rising. And sometimes just because he wanted to stop and feel everything around him.

Yes, there have been maddening towns. The traffic, the noise, but it has been for small intervals. He has passed with, and sometimes bypassed them totally. He has kept himself to wide open roads!

Then came a might day. The wide road came at a four way. Something sharp pained in his brain. Just for a fraction of a second. It was like it came and went before you can scream!
He shook his head and moved straight!
( Close you eye and imagine this. A wide road meeting at a four way. At the very moment the view goes up and up. Up to the sky, revealing what lays ahead of that wide road)

There were lanes.
There were lanes.
More lanes.
Lanes and Lanes.
So many lanes.
Infinite lanes...

Lanes meeting more lanes.
Lanes leaving other lanes.
Lanes over lanes.
Lanes below lanes.

And there was traffic. Vehicles moving everywhere. Running, rushing, speeding. No lane was without them. All had vehicles running on them.
The maddening rush!

You cant stop. You stop and you are hit from behind.
You have to move...
Move and Rush!

There is one place where you stop - The Red light. Ya everyone stops at one.
But the light timings have been so adjusted. There is not enough time to think what is happening. The moment you try to think over it.

Whoosh there is green...
Move....
Rush....


( The view keeps moving upwards. It shows the maze. You see and see. You see and it is blurred. It is blurred and it disappears!)


PS : Illustration once again by my talented friend Navi.You can visit him here.

Eruption....

For best reults - Put this song on - " Sexual Eruption" by Snoop Dogg before starting of with the reading.Get it here: DOWNLOAD

The smoke in the front of his eyes was floating in the air.

The song playing was - Sexual Eruption by snoop dogg.

He half laid on the comfortable couch of the lounge club..The walls were painted black, and the steel raillings and staircase was shining brightly.On the low table in front of him, lay his wonder puff. He put his face down and inhaled it...

.
"I'm gonna take my time, she gon get hers before II'm gonna take it slow (woah woahh),......................."

Eyes closed....It travelled from the tunnel in his nose to his head..he could feel every millimetre of its movement....till it spread to his whole head....He kept his eyes closed..and slowly opened them...

" Sexual Eruptionnnn...Sexua..."

The smoke in front of him was floating smoothly, the things moved in a motion,...slow....The dj with his headphones on movin his head slowly....,the people moving on the floor slowly.....,
Bartender threw up the vodka bottle in the air...it went up slowly...,and stopped...and it reamined there....just in the mid air.....
Hands moved, Heads moved, Smoke floated, Music played on...The Bottle stayed in the air.....!

"She might be with him but shes thinkin 'bout me me meeeeeeee............................."

He reached for his glass on the table. He moved his hand...and it moved slowly......slowly it moved ahead......Slowly.....Finally it felt the cold glass surface.....He gulped in the liquid in one go....His eyes closed....and opened again slowly....

"We don't go to the mall, we don't go out to eat eat eeeaat...."

The eyes saw a naked thigh....it moved slowly.....the black silky cloth came over it but went away slowly....Coming down they saw a shining knee....brighter than the steel in the club....The flesh would turn blue, then green and sometimes white.....The eyes moved slowly....

"All that we ever do it play in the sheets sheets sheeeeeetss............."

His head went again for the powder.....sniffed...it travelled....to the head...

"I'm gonna take it slow (woah woahh), .............."

Eyes close...

Eyes open Slowly.....

Smoke didn't float, it was still in the air....

No bodies moved, they stayed still .....

Just one body moved.....

drapped in black silk...

It moved amongst the still world...

Thighs moved....

Black...

White.....

" Sexual Eruptioooonnn..."

Black white.....

Green...

Blue...

Black white...

Green...

Blue...

"If you don't know by now, Doggy Dogg is a freak freak freeeeaak...."

It moved Slow....Slow...Slow...

"Smoke us a cigarette and go back to sleep sleep sleeeeeep...."

Slow...owww..owwwww......

Slowwwww....

Slo....

Sl....o...

S...l.....w.....w................

Stop!

All black!!

"Sexual Eruption (A sexual eruption)

Sexual Eruption (woah, an orgasm)

Sexual Eruption ............."

Eternal

Up she goes
Down she comes
She is moving hard
She is going slow

His eyes are closed
His fists are clinched
He cries a moan
He gives a groan

Her fingers are rolled
'Sit tight' he is told
Its hard as rod
She tightens her hold

Steady are his hips
She mums her lips
He feels the lick
She goes on quick

His breath is shut
As the volacano erupts
'Love you oh my babe'
'Love you too' she says!

WHY?

It is a beautiful autumn evening. The street lights have come on, though the sunlight still shines. The time when the light and darkness mate, and it looks just amazing. Traffic whirls past this road. The café is well lit place. At one table they sit. They look like a bunch of friends. All of the guys talking out loud and cracking those jokes. The song which is on sounds like – Lovestoned Remixed by Tiesto.
Two girls enter the café, and choose a corner table. One guy from the group seems detached, kind of bored. It could be well made from his gaze. The gaze- uninterested, directionless gaze….But the gaze suddenly stops!
That girl at the corner table. His gaze stops. Halts at her. The big eyes. Big eyes trying to smile, the big eyes which are just somewhere else. He knew, just knew that those eyes were not there. They were lost somewhere else. He is hypnotized in those wonderful eyes!
Few minutes pass by, and the spell breaks. He looks at the creation of God who has the most beautiful eyes in the world. A loose plain white t-shirt, military green cargos, and white sneakers. She wears just a little mascara in those charming eyes.
He just looks looks and looks. He just wishes silently that she would once look at him.

She holds the huge coffee mug with his both hands. Those hands clutching the mug and brings her close to her lips. But just then, she stops. She closes her eyes and inhales deeply as the aroma of coffee goes in her. And that expression….!
The expression that would make heavens stop. The painter would die to paint down. The poet would do anything to write down. The gods above would look down and smile…!
The expression on her face, A Nymph! Pure joy ,Bliss, Content falling down from that face!
It just leaves him mesmerized!

He so badly wants her too look at him. He hopes and he waits. And at last it comes.
But it comes and goes. As if he never existed.



She just gets up and walks out. He jumps out of his seat and follows her. He wears a light blue linen shirt ,and khakis with neat shoes. His locket moves as he walks fast.
She with her friends get in a rickshaw. He runs behind.
The rickshaw puller peddles up and it starts moving. He runs harder, and jogs with it.
“Excuse me” He calls out.
“You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen, and I am sure I will never see someone as beautiful as you ever again…..”
He offers a red rose to her, still jogging with the rickshaw.
She gives him a blank stare. No smile, no expression comes on her face. She takes the rose from him and throws it right back on his face.
“Get Lost…..”
She never actually says that but he reads it all clear in her eyes. Those big eyes!

He finds himself on a water logged road. His shoes and khakis are all drenched in dirt. He breathed hard. He looks at the rose lying right on the road. He picks it up and looks at it.
He walks down with a mind that had nothing in it.
He gets into his black SUV, drives it…. And the rose still held in his hand!

What I gonna do?

I have been pondering upon it quite a bit lately. There have been some really thought provoking comments on the post ( What you gonna do).So I start thinking about all the three things mentioned in there. They seem so damn true. When A man is lost, defeated by life , by someone or Himself. There can be plenty of reasons, causes and effects. But the fact is he feels as if he is done with everything. I guess this stage comes after one has been frustrated,Sick and depressed. When he has had enough. The next stage after all this.


I thought about it all on my life. I am in a way living the second choice. Though I don't dope and booze, but I have my addictions and ways of forgetting and running away from the reality. I am totally into hanging out in CCD every single day, and there is tonnes of Caffeine running in my veins.( into red bull tooo but see caffeine it is agian). (Though it has kinda stopped working now).In one way or other I have always found a way so far...!

The first choice- Changing oneself . Well I have done it theoretically many times. all the planning, the change, it effects ( positive positive).. and all. You bet it sounds too ideal ( Kills the funs of life..;). But can't apply it practically. Even if I try it, it doesnt work for long. ( Yes Ppl..I know " Being yourself" theory, but we are dealing with one serious issue here)
And the last choice... well thought on it a lot. But seems like all is not lost yet. Unseen hopes still fly inside.

Either they will make me fly high....or Crash me somewhere..
This remains to be seen!

[Illustration by a talented friend - Navi! You can visit his blog here - On Road to Hell]